[ It's times like this when he almost wonders if having a traditional submissive and dominant relationship would be easier. A firmer way to say no or to make it clearer than it's not something he'd advise doing.
His eyes do soften though, at those lingering unspoken words.
Lover, partner, Dominant.
They'd never been good at defining their relationship and that's no doubt part of the issue John has. That inability to be able to admit he loves two people, the pressure of that. ]
...All right then. Do you wish me to be there?
[ For the magical part- keep an eye on him. To make sure nothing goes wrong.
No. I don't want either of you there. You or Alec. [ He clarifies. ] This is something I need to do myself.
[ Having their support and attempt at understanding is fine and all. But he wants to do this his way and he trusts Nate enough to know he's in good hands with this, so. It's fine. He doesn't need an audience there to see if this all goes wrong and he can't be "fixed" even with magic. ]
I just needed to tell you both I was going to. So neither of you thought I was keeping something from you deliberately.
[ Caliban's just going to bite the inside of his cheek to hold back his words on the matter. He's grateful that the other wasn't hiding something from him- the demon certainly wouldn't have dealt with it well if he'd found out after the fact.
But this was ultimately a matter of trust. And if the other was going to be his submissive in the long term, on a proper basis- he couldn't undermine the first choice the other came out with. ]
I can't imagine Alec reacted anything any better than me. [ Caliban pointed out before he simply pushed forward to drop into the seat next to John, a hand moving down to brush along the other arm to find his hand.]
...Well, thank you for...telling me John. I can't lie and say I fully understand those feelings. [ There's another beat as he brushed his tongue along his lower lip.] But if this is what you need to do- then as long as you come home. I can't find a reason to try and stop you from this.
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His eyes do soften though, at those lingering unspoken words.
Lover, partner, Dominant.
They'd never been good at defining their relationship and that's no doubt part of the issue John has. That inability to be able to admit he loves two people, the pressure of that. ]
...All right then. Do you wish me to be there?
[ For the magical part- keep an eye on him. To make sure nothing goes wrong.
So Caliban can at least be there.]
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[ Having their support and attempt at understanding is fine and all. But he wants to do this his way and he trusts Nate enough to know he's in good hands with this, so. It's fine. He doesn't need an audience there to see if this all goes wrong and he can't be "fixed" even with magic. ]
I just needed to tell you both I was going to. So neither of you thought I was keeping something from you deliberately.
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But this was ultimately a matter of trust. And if the other was going to be his submissive in the long term, on a proper basis- he couldn't undermine the first choice the other came out with. ]
I can't imagine Alec reacted anything any better than me. [ Caliban pointed out before he simply pushed forward to drop into the seat next to John, a hand moving down to brush along the other arm to find his hand.]
...Well, thank you for...telling me John. I can't lie and say I fully understand those feelings. [ There's another beat as he brushed his tongue along his lower lip.] But if this is what you need to do- then as long as you come home. I can't find a reason to try and stop you from this.