[There are a few moments where Caliban just...does what the other needs him to do, before he sends through a pin drop of a helpful, if fancy, hotel where the other could find some alone time if he needed it.
John might not know what he needed but Caliban was willing to try to help.]
Here. Some sanctuary if you want it. Or if you want to talk...or vent or just...let me hold you. we can do that as well. Whatever you need. No questions.
i’m angry and hurting that people wanted me to feel this that it’s better for me to suffer than have peace of mind i felt happier when i didn’t have these feelings you saw me it felt like a relief from myself
And I told you you didn't owe it to anyone to feel such things again. The burden of grief is a private thing that you could choose to bear or not. You did- seem better than you had in a long time. But- perhaps the fact Alec is back, that pain can be lifted a bit if you speak to him. Speak what is in your mind.
my magic has its limits, and the things I can do- turning your heart to stone. Making you sleep without feeling. These are not things that would help the situation. I'm sorry it's hard right now, my love.
[while he knew it might not help the other in his current state- there was a small floating flame that was going to drop from the dark sky in the city to find where John was, to simply rest that flicking, blue flame a little above John's eyesight.
A simple sign that he was loved.
And cared for by the demon.
It was the least he could do. Even if he didn't know how to pull the other back from his sprial.]
It's Alec, John. And he's back. I want you to have the freedom to...express whatever feelings you have without worrying about me in the next room. And like I said, Nate needs some demonic protection magic. So.
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John might not know what he needed but Caliban was willing to try to help.]
Here. Some sanctuary if you want it.
Or if you want to talk...or vent or just...let me hold you. we can do that as well.
Whatever you need. No questions.
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i had a sort of fight with nate
i feel everything again
i hate it
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And what exactly was the fight if Nate was about?
Ah.
Well...
I can see who that would all be overwhelming.
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that it’s better for me to suffer than have peace of mind
i felt happier when i didn’t have these feelings
you saw me
it felt like a relief
from myself
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You did- seem better than you had in a long time.
But- perhaps the fact Alec is back, that pain can be lifted a bit if you speak to him.
Speak what is in your mind.
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it’s too much emotional whiplash for me
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We could dreamwalk together.
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i don’t want to feel anything right now
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These are not things that would help the situation.
I'm sorry it's hard right now, my love.
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In a proper way.
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A simple sign that he was loved.
And cared for by the demon.
It was the least he could do. Even if he didn't know how to pull the other back from his sprial.]
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Did you want me to be an asshole?
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i'm going to see alec
he's going to come over
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it's your home too
i'm not about to kick you out
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I want you to have the freedom to...express whatever feelings you have without worrying about me in the next room.
And like I said, Nate needs some demonic protection magic. So.
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thank you
please take care of nate
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You will message me if you need me, right?
Of course-...
I do happen to be something of an expert on demons. I will make sure he's settled.
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and yeah
i know you are