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[clayking]

I know.

His room is empty.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Yeah.

Are you all right?

[clayking]

I feel like murdering every guard in the city and burning the city to ashes.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Yeah. Me too.

[clayking]

I can't find much of a reason to... not do that.

[lightwoodnephilim]

It will just give them a reason to punish you and anyone else you care about.

[clayking]

They could turn me to stone and I'd find that preferable to the current feelings I have.

[lightwoodnephilim]

I know. Me too.

[clayking]

Do you wish to stay with me.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Yes, but I get it if you want to be alone for a while, too.

[clayking]

I meant in the long term, Alec.

Not just right now.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Oh, sorry. I'd like to stay with you, if you'll have me.

[clayking]

Are you sure?

I feel foolish for even asking but...

Well.

[lightwoodnephilim]

I'm sure. We can miss him together.

[clayking]

I'm not sure anything will ever fix the hole he left, but I am grateful that you wish to stay with me.

I am barely holding onto my morals, such as they are, in my grief.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Maybe he'll come back to us.

I know. But try, I don't want to see them punish you for it.

[clayking]

Perhaps. I suppose he did once before. IIt's a nice thought.

I'm not sure anything they could do to me is as bad as how I feel now.

Though, I hardly want you hurt.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Trying to be hopeful is all we can do.

I feel the same way about you getting hurt you know.

[clayking]

I'm rather impressed at your resilience, Alec. Magnus. John. Jace. And you're still reaching for hope.

I'm made of clay. Not like they could really torture me as it is. They just turn me to stone, based on my history.

Sleep pwith me tonighht? My room. Not yours. I mean.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Trust me, I'm spending time wallowing in missing him. But I'm trying not to get lost in it.

Of course, I don't want to be alone either.

[clayking]

My pretty little shadowhunter. More wise than me.

Good.

You shouldn't be alone. And I need someone to make sure I don't...well, do something rash.

[lightwoodnephilim]

I'll be there in a few.

[clayking]

Good boy.

I'll be waiting.

[lightwoodnephilim]

[Want to switch to thread, or handwave?]